My life has been full of decisions.
big. small. important. seemingly unimportant. each of those decisions helped form and create the life that I live each day. though the tendency to ponder how life would be different if I'd made another choice. taken another path. reacted a different way. i want to believe that this is the human condition.
movies like the family man show this universal truth. acknowledged. understood. when I look back there are times when i wish i had said more. had more courage. listened without thinking. been kinder to myself. held more understanding. yet, given a chance, I wouldn't do things differently.
every decision in the exact way i chose provided the growth and wisdom i have today. though at times those moments seemed painful I wouldn't trade that.
I have a list of "things" life has brought my way. a list that says "see" you can hold onto this. it was hard and painful. the me today asks why. why carry it any longer.
There is a breathtaking movie playing in the theatres named about time. I've been to see it three times. the depth of which i have cried and laughed in this movie have carried over into my daily living. Please, please go see this. and then tell me what you think. there really are no words other than to experience it yourself.
It comes down to what I chose in life, now, everyday. am i choosing pessimism or joy. am i choosing old habits or gratefulness. am i choosing a grudge or freedom.
i'm a work in progress. though i know each day i can chose one of those things. each day i can look back and say i chose to see the beauty in the moment. isn't that what life is really about? the people. the love. the joy. the choice.