I have in this past weekend tucked a fevered child into bed for two days. Warmed chicken soup too many times to remember. Suggested water would be a good idea. Pulled out games to be played while wrangling three other, thankfully, healthy children. I have watched a boy play in the sandbox. Listened to cello being practiced. Sat with a cooing baby. And, knit on the big daddy.
No not our big daddy but the name I have dubbed the sweater I gave him for christmas. The "big daddy" sweater that was wrapped up so sweetly with a note that read something like...."To my darling, patient husband."
No I didn't finish it in time. Yes, I have been working on this forever.
You know the Who song "I can see for miles and miles and miles and miles...." Yeah, that one. I have been singing that song to myself for the last week every time I pick up this sweater.
It is an Elizabeth Zimmermann seamless-hybrid for those of you out there that knit. As you know that name is either met with "Wow, that woman was brilliant" or "Man, what was that woman thinking?" One or the other. You will never hear someone with a middle of the road view of her unless of course you have no idea who she is...the godmother of knitting.
So, I have every faith that she made a brilliant pattern here. As I sit with this pile of wool on my legs I feel that. I'm sure when this is done I will say to others who have not knit her patterns before, "Man, this woman was brilliant."
Right now? Ummm...
In this moment I just feel confused. Mostly confused as to why this could possibly take so long. Confused as to how no one at my local yarn store has ever knit this sweater. Miffed that they haven't so that they could explain why and how to make the shoulders come out when knitting a seamless saddle shoulder decrease.
Yes, it should be easy I'm sure. When I figure it out I will of course say, "brilliant" but until then I sit with this sweater and wonder if I will indeed EVER finish this thing.
Of course, I'm being dramatic. This I know. This I'm okay with. Once I figure it out I will be quite humbled I'm sure.
I just hope that moment comes soon.